It took me almost a week to process the events that happened on my birthday and that have happened in the few days leading to that. This is proof that sometimes, there can be such a thing as too much of a good thing. I've never felt so overwhelmed in my life!
As most of you know by now, my sister, the fantastic Harmony Marin, came to visit for a few days and surprise me for my birthday. You can watch the video of how it all happened at the end of this post.
The point is, that was an amazing (and may I say completely unexpected) surprise. I was so intensely happy!! Until I realised that in the midst of my moving out with a friend, and all my bags being packed, and having to drag them into tubes and buses, and her wanting to spend a few days with me - and me wanting to spend time with her - things got overwhelming.
She ended up buying a last-minute expensive ticket to Italy and finding a job there, quite miraculously. But it was the most stressful 3-days of my year so far. Because, you see, I was not responsible only for myself anymore - I felt responsible for her too. God knows that even when I had only me in charge, deciding to move out of my house took all my strength and courage (I'm a cancer, and we love having a stable home). And when things got interesting... I couldn't handle it. It took me a week to go back to some kind of normality.
I have been sick for the past 3 days, a clear symptom of ''too much going on at once''. While everything in my life is plain down-right amazing, I feel a huge responsibility to keep up with the insane rhythm of the past few days. With my dissertation only 2k words in so far, a pending interview I have to design by tomorrow evening, and ten million tempting invitations, not to mention time for helping those who need and want help from me - I've got quite a lot on my plate.
And the worst thing is, I wasn't able to fully enjoy the surprise. I kept stressing through all our time together, and that honestly sucked... I wish someone would have told me: hey, your sister is gonna come visit, do NOT make plans to move away... sigh.
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